I'm glad you took the time and made the effort to "vent" as you described it about your childhood memories. I know that there are other readers who will relate to your experiences. It can be particularly painful around special occasions (e.g., Father's Day) to feel the contrast of one's own memories with those of others. The child-parent relationship is an important foundation for development. But it doesn't determine who we can become as adults. Reflecting on the best and the worst of that relationship can help inform the choices we make as we relate to others, including our own children. Your thoughtful, intelligent, insightful comment suggests that you have used your experiences to enrich and benefit how you relate to others now.
Thank you so much for your valuable contribution.