But that stimulus can be pretty maddening. I'm not arguing with your point, and in fact I want to find a way out of the habitual patterns of stimulus-reaction and I think accepting the temperament or voice or pain or memory and acting wisely with those things in tow is probably my path. It seems, though, that to do that I have to have faith in my vision, and the only vision I've ever known is distorted by those same factors. They seem to blind me to any choice other than the one they place before my eyes.

Or maybe I'm just afraid to open my eyes.