My brain processed the trauma by refusing to deal with it. There is about a year and a half totally missing from my chronological memory. I see that as a blessing. I can go on, walk, talk, work, function more or less normally because that is not part of me, nor is it part of my life. I know the trauma happened, and I know that certain events must have happened, like I graduated from high school, because I have a diploma, but I have no memory of that last year, nor of the summer before that. It's just simply not there.