You are so right, she certainly does. And I did.... For 37 years in fact...

It's so very soul shaking when you finally see the light... It wasn't me - It was her... It was always her, how she was feeling - what she was wanting - while I stayed on the sidelines hoping that one day, it would finally be me.

Trying to please the impossible, be the impossible, prove the impossible - so that I could get the impossible. Her conditional love, her undivided attention - all of it had to be earned - and the constant passive aggression

It's a relentless, heart wrenching circle of self devaluation at it's evilest.

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