Understanding the world as it really is—random—can liberate and empower us.
Verified by Psychology Today
I have long been into some kinks. I dated the HS slut, and was turned on by her pleasuring other men as i watched. I never hesitated to kiss her, even immediately after she orally pleasured another guy to finish and her mouth still was full of his climax. I loved how her mouth tasted, and one day when one of her dozen boy toys was being pleasured by her as i was pleasuring her, she told me to give her a kiss, then placed the guys member in my mouth, and told me she wanted to see me pleasure him. It was humiliating yet exciting. So i did. After that day her and i would do it together. After she took my virginity, which was after two of the other guys used her, and left a mess, she wanted another round but having just climaxed was unable to go. She then stimulated me anally, which felt incredible. She then got one of her toys, and she used it on me, which felt even more amazing. The next day she told me she wanted to watch me with those two guys, and we did, and i enjoyed the stimulation, which made me have an orgasn that was much more intense than anything penile. I also ejaculated completely flacid and without stimulation. She then got a strap on sex toy, and several attachments from big to bigger all the way up to physically impossible. She used the strapon toy in me daily, whileher and i orally pleasured the other guys. Sometimes a guy would want to take her place, which i was fine with, because a nice size real man feels infinitely better than any toy, and even with toys, bigger feels better. Now i have a married friend, who is in health care. He is african american and has a very large member. Him and i have sex daily, some days for hours.
I am not atracted to men, unless you consider seeing a large penis and wondering if it would feel good inside me. I do enjoy being physically and sexually dominated, and manhandled. My friend the first time took me in a manner very similar to rape, only after i had teased him by shaking my ass and intentionally dropping things in the gym locker room. He knew iwas sexually submissive, and that i was into receiving anal, i dated his sister who does fetish porn, and she was all about womans rights and reversing the roles sexually, and got me used to exteemelt large toys. So he grabbed my head one day, shoved his member in my mouth, turned me around, kicked my legs spread wide and pushed my chest onto the bench, and shoved himself inside me. I had never been so aroused, turned on, nor have i ever had a better orgasm. No physical attraction, just his large thick manhood feels amazing inside me. Him and i watch a lot of porn together, and its always man on woman porn, sometimes some transsexual variety. He is closet bi, but he likes being able to just take me without permission, prefer it that way.
Get the help you need from a therapist near you–a FREE service from Psychology Today.