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Sandra L. Brown, M.A.
Sandra L. Brown M.A.
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Let Go or Be Dragged

Pathological attachments are gorilla glue.

I don't know who wrote that slogan, but I loved it so much I bought it on a magnet. My first thought was, 'Oh, I love that saying for the women!' But in a flash, I realized it's a slogan for everyone. A friend of mine in recovery said she loved it for her 'A.A.' recovery slogan. Another person told me she loved it as a spiritual theme to hold with an open hand, or face the consequences. But, I do love it for all of you, here's why.

Pathological attachments are gorilla glue. The pathological partners have a vibe, a come-hither, bonding vortex that sucks you in and holds you there in a hypnotic-like trance. It's a powerful, seductive, subconscious attachment that mirrors the worst addictive feeling you could ever have. It vibrates throughout your body with a message and sensation that you will literally 'die' if you are disconnected from the source. Letting go never feels like an 'option,' it feels like sure death, death by disconnection, death by umbilical severing, death by life-force loss.

Its trance-like hold of your mind, body, and spirit leaves you stupor-fied with an inability to enact your own will or your ability to choose sane-fully the option of getting away from this catatonia. The same trance-hold that held you in rapture, reverie, and ecstasy, now holds you in a cataleptic coma. Alive, with your eyes open, but your mind dead and unable to move—you look mildly functional to the world. They don't see the transfixion that is keeping you paralyzed beneath your eyes.

You hold on because you are glued. You hold on because there was rapture, reverie, and ecstasy. You hold on because to not hold on, is to release your grip on the emotional life support system you think he has been. You hold on because you believe if you hold on long enough, the dazed and glazed existence you have been living will reverse to rapture. The nightmare will then become the dream. The stupor will become the high of the intensity. You hold on because you believe you can't let go.

Wait! Hold up! Let's ask, 'Where are you?' How did your clothes get torn? Where is the life you use to have? Where are the relationships with others you held dear? Why are your knees skinned? Why do you have those dark circles under your eyes? Why are you on antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication? Where is the career you built? Why are your nails dug into your hands? Why is your stomach in your throat? Why are you now somewhere you never wanted to go? How did you get here? Why are you bleeding from your soul? It's because your belief about letting go kept you being dragged.

Drag: verb. Related to: haul, lug, move, pull, schlep, tug, yank, crawl, creep, shuffle. Your soul is bleeding—it's your courtesy warning system from your spirit that is telling you to let go. Even being dragged can be a gift. It can be the first scraped knee that crosses you over to recovery. You've held on for lots of reasons including your own version of 'pathological hope' that he will change, and it will be different. History has taught you otherwise. It's time to accept the wisdom that 'no change' brings us. Your skinned knee is a metaphor for the beginning of your recovery because the word dragged means 'to haul something to a new place.'

Let go or be dragged.

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About the Author
Sandra L. Brown, M.A.

Sandra L. Brown, M.A., is CEO of The Institute for Relational Harm Reduction and Public Pathology Education.

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