When Grief and Love are Unspoken
A tribute to our son.
Posted Feb 02, 2013
Twelve years ago, on February 1, our son died.
The next day, February 2, he was born, still.
I know. It is backwards. There is nothing right about a child dying. Words often fail to capture our emotions. Either we cannot speak or there are no words. As a loving tribute to Zachariah, I share this poem.
Twelve Years Unspoken
Entering my favorite flower shop,
Passing by teddy bears and blankets,
I close my eyes, a prayer unspoken.
“Three yellow roses and baby’s breath, please.”
She says, “We have no baby’s breath.”
Appropriate, I suppose, since neither did he.
She offers other “little white flowers.”
But it is baby’s breath I long to see.
“Then just the roses.”
Reading my credit card, she pauses,
“Oh, I didn’t recognize you.”
“It’s OK,” I say.
The reason I was there
Hung in the air,
“How have you been?”
She quietly asks.
I whisper through tears,
“It’s a hard day.”
Twelve years, unspoken
My voice gives way.
She shares, “I’m sorry.”
Tenderly wrapping each rose,
“Hang in there,” she says softly.
It helps that she knows.
I walk away.
In my empty arms rest
The yellow roses
With no baby’s breath.
My heart, broken,
Holding love, unspoken.
February 1, 2013