I'm learning quickly how to cry. For two years my brother was a very frail man, spending much time in hospital. His wife had a mental breakdown and was in psychiatric care for over 9 months, with various forms if treatment. I visited my son in NZ in December for Christmas....on 13 Dec my brother took seriously ill and died early January.......I couldn't get back for his funeral. I thought I'd coped with his death, until early May when my mood plummeted. I am now starting the 5th week of an SSRI, And trying to come to terms with my emotions and the side effects these meds induce. I now find it a great release to cry, knowing that it is healing my soul and my body, and helping me to come to terms with my loss. I do hope to feel well soon though.