I feel as if my life has been stolen (particularly since I believe that slander and misogyny contributed to the problem) and my talents are being wasted. It's a weight on my shoulders, a pain in my stomach, an empty place where my heart ought to be. The career I trained for is what I've wanted since I was in elementary school. I never dreamed I'd end up in a poorly-paid clerical position, especially after receiving a teaching award and prestigious research fellowships in graduate school.