I am a 50 year old male, with a wife, three girls and a granddaughter. I am a Christian. I struggle to do anything for my own enjoyment or benefit. There are many things that I know I would like to do or accomplish but I keep thinking “what’s the point?”. I have never had a hobby. So, I went a year ago and bought a nice guitar. I wanted to learn how to play. It mostly just sits there. I struggle to have any motivation or drive to do anything for just myself. It’s like I feel if others won’t benefit from what I’m doing then why do it. I think I’ve narrowed the reason down to the belief that I’m not worth investing my own time into. That doesn’t make much sense, does it? I also have reduced my Facebook posting because I couldn’t separate the lack of likes and comments from determining my own self worth. Every Wednesday I have several hours at home that I could spend on myself but I just find myself sitting there watching TV. Then I get depressed that another opportunity to do something I would enjoy has passed again. Does anyone have any suggestions for me?

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