I am a little confused about the distinction between schizoid and avoidant, as it relates to my own experience. The idea of a relationship or friendship appeals to me. I can imagine it. I do feel lonely sometimes. In theory, I'd enjoy getting along with people, but in reality, I never actually do. I have no interest in being around any of the people I've known who actually exist. I don't hate them, I'm not afraid of them, but it's unrewarding and pointless. I try now and then anyhow, but it's just tedious.

I do have social anxiety, it interferes with my life in various ways.. but this seems more the result of spending so much of my life alone, as I prefer to do. I often go weeks without speaking to a single person, and I'm relatively fine with that, but that does make me anxious and avoidant, to some degree.

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