All those statements fit...fun, exciting, seductive, charismatic, impulsive, sexy AND unfortunately individuals diagnosed with anti-social personality disorder...
the hard part is putting aside the first parts of the description and remembering to tell myself about the rest listed underneath.

Even after more than three years, when I started feeling that things didn't seem to fit properly, I still find myself getting drawn back into the fun, the charm, the excitement, the thrills....only to recall that it will end in tears if I don't step away.

I need to keep strong.