The Story You Tell Yourself Can Change Your Life

Twenty years ago, I publicly disclosed that I was living with HIV in a first-person essay for The Washington Post. The story had an unusual twist. By then, I had spent two decades reporting on the HIV/AIDS epidemic—as an HIV-negative gay journalist. Suddenly, I was no longer just covering the story. I was living it.

For years I had interviewed people whose lives had been transformed by HIV. I witnessed extraordinary suffering, but also extraordinary love as friends, families, and entire communities stepped forward to care for people with AIDS when too many others turned away.

Now I had to decide what story I would tell about myself.

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Would my diagnosis become a story about loss? About shame? About fear? Or could it become something else?

Writing that piece marked the first time in my career that I turned my reporter's eyes toward myself—not in the privacy of my journal, but in public.

Keeping my diagnosis secret didn't feel right. Too many courageous people had trusted me with their stories over the years. I had seen firsthand how honest storytelling can open minds, soften hearts, reduce stigma, and help people heal.

Any discomfort I felt about exposing what many people consider "private business" seemed small compared with the possibility that someone else might find hope, caution, or comfort in my experience.

Only later did I understand what I had really begun to discover: The stories we tell ourselves can either strengthen—or undermine—our resilience.

Learning to re-story difficult experiences

In his 2026 book Narrative Practices for Resilience and Hope: Rewriting Stories of Trauma in Clinical Work, psychologist, clinical social worker, and Smith College professor Hugo Kamya, PhD, describes what he calls "problem stories"—the narratives we naturally create after difficult or traumatic experiences.

These stories often become dominated by what went wrong: the diagnosis, the loss, the failure, the disruption. Over time, they can become so powerful that they crowd out everything else we know to be true about ourselves.

Kamya argues that healing begins when we learn to "re-story" those experiences.

Rather than blaming ourselves or becoming trapped in narratives of helplessness, we can assign new meaning to what happened. We can recognize strengths that were always present but overlooked because our attention was fixed on the crisis itself.

As Kamya writes, re-storying helps us "identify and amplify indicators of strength and resiliency that go unrecognized."

In other words, we become the protagonist—the hero—of our story instead of its victim.

Looking for resilience instead of damage

That insight became the foundation for my book Stonewall Strong.

Much of the research about gay men understandably emphasizes discrimination, trauma, depression, and other consequences of homophobia. Those realities matter.

But they are not the whole story.

I wanted to ask a different question: How have so many gay men survived—and often thrived—despite those challenges?

The answer led me to the work of behavioral scientist Ron Stall, PhD, MPH, professor emeritus at the University of Pittsburgh Graduate School of Public Health. His research found that gay men who overcame internalized homophobia were among the most resilient and least likely to engage in self-destructive behaviors.

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As Stall told me during an interview, "Getting a population of people not to hate themselves is good for their health. This is not rocket science."

That simple observation captures the essence of re-storying. When we stop defining ourselves by the worst things that have happened to us—or by the prejudice directed against us—we create room for a fuller, stronger understanding of who we are.

Reclaiming your story

Kamya calls re-storying "the quiet, steady act of reclaiming agency and reimagining our place in the world."

That has certainly been true for me.

Being diagnosed with HIV in 2005 shook my sense of identity. I questioned my future, my worth as a potential partner, and my place in the world.

But over time, that diagnosis also became the doorway to something unexpected. Looking honestly at my own life, I found not just pain but repeated evidence that I had already survived difficult experiences. I had adapted before. I had found meaning before. I had been resilient before.

The diagnosis didn’t create my resilience. It revealed resilience that had been there all along.

Kamya suggests four practices that can help anyone begin re-storying their own life:

• Know your story. Honestly acknowledge what has shaped you, including both your wounds and your strengths.
• Befriend your story. Treat yourself with the same compassion you would offer someone else.
• Re-story your old story. Challenge narratives that no longer serve you. You are allowed to outgrow them.
• Reimagine your story. Ask not only what happened, but what remains possible.

He describes these as "small acts of resistance" that lead to self-liberation.

I would add one more: Remember that your life is always larger than the hardest thing that has happened to you.

Whether your challenge is a medical diagnosis, divorce, grief, addiction, or another life-altering event, that experience is one chapter—not the entire book.

The story you tell yourself matters. What you say to yourself in your mind's self-talk matters. It shapes how you see your past, how you live your present, and how you imagine your future.

Perhaps the most important story you'll ever rewrite is the one you tell yourself about who you really are.