We all feel insecure in the midst of divorce. This makes sense; we've just ripped apart the life we've been living, and our new life is not yet set. This can make us unusually concerned about what other people say or think, more susceptible to bad advice, and even more likely to engage in uncharacteristic negative self-comparison.
This tendency to look at our lives, which are in flux, in comparison to someone else's, inspired my Principle of Parting #6: Beware of the Urge to Compare. When I was going through my divorce, and writing a book about it, I created Seven Principles of Parting to help me get through the difficult transition.
We want to remain self-referential in divorce, keep our focus on our own situation, rather than comparing it to someone else's. Another way to put it: Stay in your own divorce. This is your marriage that’s ending. Your new life that’s beginning.
Your next door neighbor’s ex-spouse slashed his tires? That has no predictive value over your divorce, even if you live in identical houses with matching wallpaper. Someone else's bad divorce has no impact on yours.
Nor do studies purporting to show the "unavoidable" ills of divorce have anything to do with you, or the friends insisting that such studies exist. In general, we maintain a basically stable level of well-being throughout our lives, regardless of circumstances.
But those who continue to suffer pull down the average—and this average is what you see in studies purporting to show the unavoidable ills of divorce. Researchers are increasingly excited by new modeling methods that let them break group results into finer slices and therefore analyze with more nuance. In your own divorce, you need to keep your vision trained on your own chart.
As in, there he is, living in Alaska with his new wife, while you’re raising your three children alone in Colorado, as was a woman I interviewed named Hollie. Or, there she is touring the Taj Mahal with her new soul mate, while you’re ducking into bars on your way home from work, too depressed to raise your eyes above your drink, then leaving alone.
We all move along the route to recovery—and romance—at our own pace. Empathy for your ex may help you stay focused on your path. “I don’t even know how it feels to have to stay at a job and be in love with someone in Alaska and have your kids in Colorado,” says Hollie, in Colorado. “He says it tears him apart. I would never say it’s easier on him.”
One of the biggest challenges—and opportunities—in any breakup is managing the emotional transition from being part of a couple to being a complete "unit" on your own. I found it hard to stop thinking about what my ex might like, how my actions would or would not impact him, even if he would enjoy a hike I was about to take. We gain so much from our connections, and it can feel pretty unnatural to switch our focus to ourselves. But this is also a chance to gain clarity about what really matters to us and to move forward into a life more in line with our desires.
Check out Splitopia: Dispatches from Today's Good Divorce and How to Part Well to learn how to avoid the temptations of comparison and start living again.