A woman may hear how motherhood will change her life forever. Indeed. But what is often not said is that some of these changes will be profoundly disquieting, often launching her into a crisis, the likes of which she has never known.
What if, I were to spend much of my adult life trying desperately to grow up in spite of a profound desire to stay put or go back, perhaps, to put closure on that which was left undone. A raw, unfinished innocence. Organic anxiety.
There is a reason the term postpartum depression has traditionally and exclusively been linked with a woman's experience. Principally, it's due to the fact that the definition of postpartum depression has been linked to the unique experience of childbirth and delivery, commonly involving labor pains and a uterus.
It remains frustrating that postpartum depression is still perceived as a personal weakness; that a suicidal mom may still be afraid to disclose how she is feeling; and some doctors still mistake postpartum suffering for normal postpartum adjustment.
If we do not move past the stigma of mental illness and begin to discuss psychosis with the honest exploration and tender consideration that it deserves, we will continue to be stunned by tragic stories of moms who could not get the help they need.