Are You Your Own Sex Object?
Might we all exhibit signs of autoeroticism?
Posted Aug 06, 2013
Additionally, in employing the term autoerotic, is it relevant to consider what the self-stimulating individual is thinking of, or who they’re fantasizing about, during the act? And in attempting to distinguish among the various manifestations of such sexual expression, is it reasonable to eliminate from discussion asexuals, who (at least as strictly defined) are totally lacking in sexual interest—even though that non-sexual designation has at times been used interchangeably with autoeroticism?
This post will attempt to clarify the different degrees and dimensions of autoeroticism. Hopefully, in doing so, it will help readers better grasp the intriguing dynamics of related sexual behaviors that, though not without their similarities, yet derive from different impulses, motives, and personality characteristics. In brief, autoeroticism isn’t a one-dimensional phenomenon. To be adequately understood, its different manifestations must be understood. Moreover, it cannot be overemphasized that very few individuals do not—to whatever degree—exhibit certain autoerotic elements in their sexuality.
Note that in this context we’re really not talking about the self-centered admiration, vanity, or egotism of a narcissistic personality. No, by itself autoeroticism doesn’t indicate a personality disturbance. It merely refers to a particular sexual practice, preference, or orientation. It can be broadly described as narcissistic only in that it depicts a form of self-love, not necessarily mental or emotional (although that certainly could be the case), but definitely physical. As the original Narcissus of Greek mythology became enamored of his own image (as reflected in a pool of water), so can pronounced autoerotics be physically attracted to—or titillated by—themselves.
And moving farther out still on the autoeroticism spectrum, at some point autoeroticism merges with autoromance, especially if the individual has developed a strong, loving emotional connection to self. This “self bond” has the power to be exceptionally stable and enduring. For if over time the highly gratifying—and frequently orgasmic—experience of self-love remains “intimately” tied to self-stimulation, such self-love would in fact constitute a lifelong romance (and one with very little fear of abandonment!).
It’s curious that though there are countless books on masturbation, there’s very little (at least from a scholarly perspective) written on the varied psychological dynamics of autoeroticism. And that's why much of my preparatory research for this piece has needed to focus on Internet forums on the subject, as well as my own professional experience as a psychologist. My hypothesis for this peculiar neglect is that the act of masturbation is rarely understood as about actual self-love—a romantic/sexual attraction to self culminating in the act of making love, even passionate love, to one’s physical being. Rather, this solo act is typically (though not always) regarded in the narrowest sense: as about alleviating tension (sexual or otherwise), or as providing oneself with a momentary sensory pleasure that’s simple, uncomplicated, and, well, free. In such instances, masturbation probably warrants being viewed as an expression of autoeroticism only in a limited way—though, granted, such self-stimulating impulses may in fact represent its most common form.
Another way of comprehending all this is to view those who are markedly autoerotic as deriving sufficient sexual satisfaction through masturbation, whereas others (even those who might masturbate more frequently than autoerotics) might clearly experience greater pleasure through partner sex—that is, if it were as convenient or available. And this isn’t to imply that non-autoerotics receive higher levels of stimulation through partner sex. Because most of us are naturally more connected, sensitive, or attuned to our own bodies than any “outsider” could possibly be, we’re all ideally synchronized to sexually arouse ourselves. We can choose not only the best time and place for self-stimulation, but also the most titillating touch, movement (including pace or progression), and position. Nor do we have to concern ourselves with—or be made anxious by—anybody else’s reactions to us. And finally, we can take as much (or as little) time for our self-pleasuring as we like.
In the end, autoeroticism is best viewed as a more or less natural expression of our sexuality. And this is hardly anything to be ashamed of. In a sense, we’re all deviants—or, much more realistically, none of us is. Despite society’s uneasiness or discomfort with it, autoerotic expression is an altogether normal outlet for sexual feelings common to us all.
Nonetheless, the great majority of individuals (regardless of how many autoerotic tendencies they might exhibit) show a decided preference for partner sex. For at a deeper level such encounters are more emotionally satisfying. They’re warmer, more personal, and intimate—in a word, more fulfilling. On the other hand, those who are predominantly autoerotic seem more or less capable of having this same pleasing experience in solitude, since their pleasurably intense sexual relationship with self feels equally intimate and gratifying.
As one Internet forum writer on the subject professed: “I'm an autosexual. I'm in love with myself to the point where I would date it and sleep with it. [Note, incidentally, the author’s self-objectification.] Another commenter put it this way: “Though I am a male I do not consider myself gay since I am in no way attracted to other men. While I have some romantic attraction to females, I do not consider myself extremely attracted to women so I guess hetero- doesn't work for me either. Nope, I am just autosexual. This does not mean I am a raging narcissist . . . but when it comes to the erotic, nobody can attract me like myself (yes, I do have a lot of mirrors) and definitely prefer masturbation (which I consider making love to myself) to any sort of intercourse.”
As already suggested, most autoerotics (or autosexuals) are not so by natural inclination, but out of necessity, or expedience. So, in a sense, these individuals are best seen as only peripherally autoerotic. Consider, for instance, these two forum postings:
- Being a heterosexual male, I have been unable to find a female partner for years and have just accepted the fact that I will be autosexual for the rest of my life.
- Unwilling to risk STDS, yet having not given up completely on life [‘s sensual pleasures], she has been an autosexual since her divorce.
On the contrary, however, there are many unqualifiedly autoerotic individuals. And because of their awareness that society in general frowns upon their sexual orientation, they regularly must wrestle with the inner conflict inextricably tied to their core sense of self. Here’s just one touching example of such emotional ambivalence:
"The thought of intimacy and sex mostly grosses me out. But I feel really attracted to myself, even in love. . . . Because most people see [autosexuality] as a shallow thing consisting only of masturbation, [I think another term for my eroticism]—namely, autoromanticism—better describes the nature of my sexuality. . . . Other people do not give me the same deep emotional connection as I seem to have with myself. I think if someone cured me of this I would fall in an even deeper black hole of emptiness. I just can't imagine "losing" the only romantic love I've ever felt. Even though it feels like a curse."
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