For those of us who are grieving a loss, holidays are the most difficult of times. The upcoming holiday, Thanksgiving, celebrates gratitude for the bounty we have. But, you may be thinking: What do I have to be grateful for? I've lost the love of my life. I will never be the same. My life is in a big black hole. The usual anticipation of the Thanksgiving meal, with friends and family around a bountiful table, a turkey, dishes of our favorite foods, pies, cakes, is not remotely possible.
If the terrible pain of loss makes it impossible for you to be cheered; if you just want to be alone, either because you cannot imagine listening to all the laughter when you cry all the time, or to be around people, even those you love, when the person you love most will be missing, then follow your heart. Do what you wish to do and not what someone tells you would be the ‘right' thing to do. If you want to be alone, then be alone. But if you think there may be a few people you would feel comfortable sharing this holiday with, invite them to your home or go to theirs. Have compassion for yourself and don't put yourself into a situation you don't want to be in.