Okay, so we know now the consequences of living an authentic life, and we know that if we plan to find and begin to live from the authentic Self, we are going to have to start listening to its voice, and take 100% responsibility for our choices. So, now let's go back over some of the various roles or identities and talk more specifically about how we can move out of them into the authentic Self.
Since we started describing these identities with the Scapegoat/Priest, we'll start there. We said in the blogs about this identity, that the Scapegoat/Priest believes that she is really a bad person and must constantly be about the business of good-deed-doing, so that she can wash herself clean of her badness. So, she'll quite often find herself in relationships with people who are using her and blaming her and calling her selfish. But she just keeps trying harder to give them what they need, because if she doesn't, she's going to feel like that bad person she's always suspected she is. And guilt is what leads her there.
So, the first step for Scapegoat/Priest is going to be beginning to see guilt differently. Guilt is the feeling that you've done something wrong. But large amounts of guilt are based in shame-which says that you are wrong, or bad. So, because the Scapegoat/Priest feels deep down like he is a bad person, guilt is what he has come to believe will keep him from acting like that bad person. In other words, he thinks that guilt is the right or correct response--in extreme cases, to just about everything.
Guilt is seen by the Scapegoat/Priest as the feeling that keeps her in line. It tells her when she's done something bad, or when she's even thinking about doing something bad, and it guides her to her next step. Guilt let's her know that other people's happiness depends on her. Guilt informs her that she's feeling feelings she should not feel and thinking thoughts she should not think. Guilt tells her to keep trying harder when people are unhappy. Guilt tells her that she's responsible when people are sad or angry or afraid. And it does all of this, so that she won't have to go all the way to shame--where she just clearly sees herself as the problem person. She's a burden and perhaps should not ever have been born. In other words, she is bad. But if she is obedient to the guilt, then she might just be able to convince herself and others that she's not so bad after all--at least temporarily.
But if he ever truly wants to begin to live authentically, the Scapegoat/Priest is going to need to begin to see that guilt is his jailer, his abuser, his betrayer. Basically. Guilt is the cult leader, and he's drinking the Kool-aid. Guilt holds him hostage to the fear that if he doesn't do what guilt orders him to do, then he will feel even more guilt. And, of course, every time he doesn't do what guilt orders him to do, guilt puts him on the rack. He's tortured by obsessive thoughts of guilt that won't allow him to do anything other than finally cave to do whatever it is that guilt is ordering him to do.
Typically, however, Scapegoat/Priest does not see guilt as the problem. The problem is that the other person needs her, or the other person will be hurt if...; or she is selfish if she doesn't.... And her obsessions will be all about what will happen to the other person, or whether or not she'll get in trouble. So, she's usually so busy with these thoughts that she cannot see how she is absolutely dependent on guilt to guide her in every way.
So, allowing themselves to see guilt as the problem is a completely new paradigm for most Scapegoat/Priests, and they are not even willing to consider changing paradigms until they are exhausted and filled with resentment from doing all the things they don't want to do out of obligation, and carrying the emotional responsibility for other people's lives.
But when Scapegoat/Priests begin to see that they have lived their entire lives guided only by guilt, which has done nothing but abuse them--they begin to respond to it differently. They begin to treat it less like a god to be worshipped and followed and more like an abusive slave owner.
So, if you have identified as Scapegoat/Priest, try working with the images and thoughts that go with this paradigm shift for a while, and see what shifts and breaks lose inside. Then, to the next step.