Polygamy can sound seductive in theory. In reality, the addition of a third party, either by mutual consent or secretly, into the intimate circle of a couple's shared world can wreak devastation to a marriage. Affairs are right up there with additions and abusive anger as far as being one of the leading causes of divorce.
While prevention is vital, recovery is the challenge after an affair has happened. Is it really possible to put the past behind you when the past includes your or your partner's affair? Can trust ever be repaired?
The good news is that full recovery after even long-standing or multiple affairs is possible. Ideally, recovery ends up with everyone having learned and grown.
Recovery for the deceiver
Recovery for the deceiver needs to begin with cutting all ties with the affair partner. If the relationship continues in almost any form, recovery for the marriage is unlikely to succeed.
Second, the deceiver needs to get past defensiveness and shame enough to be able to offer full transparency about what happened. Harder yet, it is likely that the deceiver will need to answer his or her spouse’s questions again and again. Honesty, patience, and humble acknowledgment of mistakes will be essential.
Third, the deceiver has personal thinking to do in order to come to a full understanding of how the affair happened. Step by step, where was there a turn in one direction when a turn in the other was essential? Was there too much time alone with someone at work? Too much talking about personal issues with someone other than the spouse? Alcohol involved? etc. Behavioral issues like these need to be clarified.
Fourth, uncovering deeper motivations helps, e.g., a long-standing sense of inadequacy that the affair partner soothed, underlying anger at the spouse that was causing marital distance, or an inability to say No when the affair partner was coming on seductively. Inability to terminate the illicit relationship is another common cause of affair continuation that deserves serious exploration and rectification.
Understanding history enables one to prevent its re-occurrence. This understanding however has to be observational rather than self-flagellating. Being excessively angry at oneself can block real learning. Shame and blame do little toward prevention.
Understanding of the subconscious concerns, mistaken actions and wrong decisions that led to the affair can begin to clear a pathway to a better future. So is desire to put one's life on a totally different course, a course of true marriage commitment.
Recovery for the spouse begins with healing of the pain from the breech of the monogamy vow. The deceiver must be able to tolerate and feel genuine compassion for the pain that a betrayal, emotional or sexual, almost always incurs. Without empathy for the suffering that the affair has caused in the spouse, a spouse’s recovery will be more difficult. Insufficient empathy from the betrayer invites a spouse’s ever-increasing resentment.
Shock and rage are common initial reactions to a betrayal. Gradually however the betrayed spouse needs to be able to describe his or her feelings rather than act them out by lashing out in anger. Quiet admissions of “I feel so hurt” will be heard more effective than yelling or other more dramatic displays.
Crying, which indicates vulnerability, generally can be tolerated and heard by the betrayer more readily than accusatory anger. Most spouses have limited long-term ability to tolerate the intense blame, accusation and fury that are normal during the initial period of shock. Rather than continue this shock behavior over a long period of time therefore the betrayed spouse needs to be able to ease into discussing feelings without a continuation of angry verbal lashings.
When a partner has been unfaithful, how and why the infidelity happened become deeply-felt questions. Only the deceiver’s spouse can provide the answers. Ability to talk together in a non-accusatory, observational way is essential, even though openness is difficult when the deceiver feels overwhelmed by shame and the deceived feels profoundly hurt and angry.
Belief that the role of a betrayed spouse is to punish the wrong-doer can retard the healing process.
A betrayed spouse generally benefits from hearing what the partner has learned from the betrayal, mainly to find out if the spouse has garnered enough insight to be certain that the same path will not get traveled again.
A full accounting of the betrayal generally needs to be aired for a betrayed spouse to feel like trust will again be possible. Yet discretion is important lest negative images of what the partner had been doing make the trauma even worse.
Interestingly, a spouse recovers from the pain more readily to the extent that s/he is able to see his/her own part in the marriage difficulties that may have made the relationship vulnerable. These mistakes may include having been emotionally unavailable to the betrayed spouse, having been a difficult person to live with because of anger or other behaviors, or not following up on early hints of potential infidelity.
It's paradoxical, but the more a betrayed spouse is aware of his or her own role in the development of the affair, the more quickly he or she is likely to recover.
Also, insights into one’s own mistakes empower a person to make changes that will strengthen the marriage in the future.
The breech of trust generally is healed most effectively to the extent that the straying spouse becomes completely transparent. If the deceiver offers a spouse full access to mobile telephone records and texts, to computer emails, and more, trust rebuilds more quickly. Continued hiding behaviors can undermine the spouse's recovery process. Recovery is as much about recovery from breech of honesty as from breech of sexual and emotional monogamy vows.
Humans are meaning-giving animals. The initial meanings a spouse gives to an affair are bound to be negative: "I've been humiliated." "You were so selfish." etc. Over time however these meanings need to shift toward a more sympathetic understanding of the context toward the goal of seeing the outcome of the affair ultimately as leading to better lives for both partners.
Recovery for the marriage hopefully includes a radical marriage upgrade. That is, to the extent that spouses learn how to communicate more sensitively, how to listen with more repect, how to talk about sensitive issues without anger or criticism, and how to offer more positivity like smiles, hugs and sexual pleasure to their partner, the odds go up that the post-affair marriage will end up being far more gratifying for both partners than the pre-affair relationship.
st-affair marriage will be far more gratifying for both partners than the pre-affair relationship.
Three sample cases
I met just this last treatment hour with a woman whose husband left her several months ago to live with his secretary. The wife has recently passed the shock stage, and is beginning to realize the extraordinary extent to which her husband was too trapped by extreme narcissism to be a genuine marriage partner. She is on the road to personal recovery, having transitioned from intense anger at the secretary to feeling enormously appreciative toward the woman for having rescued her from a hopelessly ungratifying marriage. To her surprise, with her husband gone, the wife is experiencing happiness such as she had not felt in many years.
In this same case the wife had herself had a brief affair twenty years earlier. There was insufficient marital recovery afterwards. The marriage had continued on but without any learning to upgrade it. There was no personal growth from either partner. The result was an additional two decades of living together in a joyless marriage.
In a quite different case, when a husband's extended and multiple affairs came to light, both partners faced the reality that they needed significant personal growth to be mature marriage partners, him from a lifetime of narcissistic self-aggrandizement, and hers from a lifetime of feeling insecure and unloved. Both partners also dedicated themselves to learning the skills for communicating as effective teammates in their marriage partnership. The result was a genuinely gratifying happily-ever-after story.
My friend the late Peggy Vaughan, one of the lead specialists nationwide in recovery from affairs, built a resource website and support group organization which offer excellent guidance. I asked Peggy if she would add a brief guide to this blogpost outlining the key steps for both spouses in the recovery process. Thank you Peggy!
A Brief Guide to Recovering from an Affair
by Peggy Vaughan
There are no simple 1, 2, 3 steps for recovering from an affair. This guide clarifies the essentials that generally need to be included in the recovery process more than a map of the particular order that fits for a given individual or couple.
The journey of recovery is an often-lengthy process with few or no shortcuts. Even when couples do "everything right," the journey is seldom smooth. It's likely instead to be a very jagged path with two steps forward and one step back.
Recovering often tends to be far more complex than most couples either want or expect. Even the very definition of recovery itself is complicated. For instance, staying married is no guarantee of personal recovery, and personal recovery is no guarantee of rebuilding the marriage. The deceived spouse can personally recover through their own effort, but it takes commitment and effort from both partners to rebuild the marriage.
As I said above, there are two different types of recovery: personal recovery and marriage recovery. A continuing marriage may or may not include personal recovery. Similarly, personal recovery may or may not include a continuing marriage.
For the injured spouse, staying trapped in a state of personal injury, regrets, and anger can occur independent of whether or not the marriage survives if personal recovery has been insufficient. For the person who had the affair, insufficient recovery puts them at risk for a repeat offense.
I do want to encourage all individuals and couples who are coping with affairs to wholeheartedly commit to the recovery journey. Like any crisis, the experience can destroy you or can make you stronger.
1. Dealing with the physical and emotional reactions
--Physical trauma (weight loss, inability to sleep - or even function).
--Facing the future together as a couple who are changed, but hopefully stronger through working together to rebuild the marriage.
Peggy Vaughan's Extramarital Affairs Resource Center at dearpeggy.com offers about 200 articles, information on Peggy's ten books plus many by other authors, links to other relevant websites, a list for locating effective therapists, and information about BAN.
Peggy Vaughan also has founded BAN, which stands for Beyond Affairs Network, an international network of recovery support groups. The BAN website includes further information about BAN including a list of cities with BAN groups.