Life in a Body

Dear Steve,

I started immediately after high school, following a head injury at age 9, towards seeking a job at a restraunt for 6 week's. Apparently I needed some more training in the area I was seeking due to this concussion. But I wanted to improve the economic cycle across America, in order to show others that I didn't have to rely on SSDI; which so many disabled people live on in their adult years. Frankly it tears me apart thinking that I'll have to depend on financial aid instead of holding a part time job.

After graduating my mother had been transfering to TX to become a school teacher, where they get paid more for higher qualifications. Well my next job was behind her in Port Arthur at another restraunt to show gov. sources in Austin that I needed SSI. Apparently that job only lasted 6 week's too. Although this job was to demonstrate my lack of ability to the federal government. Over all, thoughl, I still wanted to live on my own, after having lived a dimal, stressful life.

Well my mother understood my determination ,unlike her other 6 children, and let me live with her for 2 year's while they investigated all my records in the captil. She brought me home books to read and a thesaurus to find out the various ways words can be used in our vocabulary. In essence, she knew how avid of a student I was during high school and she was willing to go that extra mile to help me get a good job in the future.

Once I started getting disability I wanted to use it beneficially rather than waist it like so many disabled people do; or get taken advantage of like a large number do. Clearly I started an investment after getting my fisrt check and paid for my own college tuition, insted of financial aid. In other words it felt suitable to me to pay for my skills acquired instead of depending on the government. You see before my TBI I was a very intelligent kid who looked up to his uncle, a scholar, as a road model. Although I had to accept the fact that I was never going to be that smart.

During my latter half of my freshman year of college I decided to run some marathon's in Dallas, Austin, Houston, San Antonio, Nashville, and San Diego to demonstrate what head injured survivors could do of their medicatioin. Frankly I had seizures, but went through a period of time of my meds. and scared my doctor out of his wits. However after having ran my first 3 marathon's on the seizure medication in Houston I wanted to uncover some new reaseach to the doctors who assigned me Tegratol; the med I was taking for seizures.

Overall, their are too many stories to talk about in this letter, but it burns me up misusing money to satisfy others. I know I'm living a stressful life here in America, with the poor healthcare plan. But I hope one day everyone will come to an understanding, "If Success is Going to be it is up to me and God helps those who help themselves."

Sincerely Ashton Bishop

My friend,
It seems to me you are brave, innovative and just want what everyone wants, peace, a feeling of purpose and to live life fully. Good for you.
I wouldn't beat myself up as regrets get us angry and self critical. Like you said, you will be helped as you continue to go for it, even with your challenge.fact vs fiction.Nothing can you stop you-Thats real

My friend,
It seems to me you are brave, innovative and just want what everyone wants, peace, a feeling of purpose and to live life fully. Good for you.
I wouldn't beat myself up as regrets get us angry and self critical. Like you said, you will be helped as you continue to go for it, even with your challenge.fact vs fiction.Nothing can you stop you-Thats real

My friend,
It seems to me you are brave, innovative and just want what everyone wants, peace, a feeling of purpose and to live life fully. Good for you.
I wouldn't beat myself up as regrets get us angry and self critical. Like you said, you will be helped as you continue to go for it, even with your challenge.fact vs fiction.Nothing can you stop you-Thats real

Most people spend most of their lives living to other people's expectations. As a result, the majority of people's efforts are

placed into surviving an exploitive commercial and government system that has a desperate need to suck energy out of people to prop

itself up. There are those who are gifted at making money and filling in forms, and there are those who are not. Possessions, and

preparations for safety in the long-distant future, mean that a small proportion of the People on Earth consume most of it's

resources, and poison everyone's planet while they are about it.

For the past five years I have lived outdoors without working to keep the system, without claiming from the system, without begging

or stealing, and without savings or any reserve of possessions. I know freedom as I have not signed a single government form in

those five years.

In 1992 I picked up a piece of white crystal in a field in Cornwall, England, and was instantly tuned in to energy. Exploration of

the many ancient monuments, such as stone circles and standing stones, opened me up to healing energies. So when in 1994 I trapped

my sciatic nerve, I trusted the energy to heal me.

For sixteen years I have practiced a chi exercise for which I have never had any other teacher than my trust in what I call The One

Mind ( TOM ). Not only do I never get back pain, but I have a stength and mobility at 52 that is greater than at 21, and I am

exactly the same shape. No-one has identified what I am doing, although many practioners recognise movements. I have had past life

memories that strongly suggest that use of this energy in a previous life is having karmic effects in this life.

I read many books before I realised that the key is trust in TOM. To live in the moment for five years with none of the resources

everyone else considers indispensible, takes a trust that has become an easy confidence.

Having received my wake up call when I was precisely 33.3 years of age, my job is that of Torchbearer. I go into areas that are

rather dark, and having demonstrated a different way of thinking, some people define themselves by their response.

Without knowing why I was buying property, I set up an Earth Project that was attacked before I understood what I was doing, and I

was ruined and criminalised by government and police, and my way of life removed. Since 1993 I have been working on myself, dealing

with many levels of anger, while at the same time, working on those who cross my bows in a meaningful way.

With no expenses barring food, I lived on $20 a week or less, and being totally free, I could at any moment give all of my

attention to someone for as long as it took to sort them out and move them on. A small donation here and there was all I needed to

eat, as I could get to a supermarket at the time when fresh food is sold at giveaway prices.

At the same time, I raised a serious issue with the government of my country ( as my website shows ), and government has as yet not

addressed the issue.

I happened to think of Neale Walshe this afternoon ( CWG 1 & 2 came my way ), and within a short while I spotted an advert for

Manifest-Station. I lived with a deep trance channeler for three years, during which I spoke with spirit guides, so I am aware of

other levels of consciousness.

I tend towards simplicity, and to be honest, I found the web design of Manifest-Station irritating - far too busy, and as a web

designer for my own research, I saw it as far too slickly commercial. However, I got through my instinct to go, and I got to the

video section, where I found yours.

I am ready to move on, and as TOM has lead me here, here is what I have written.

Who knows where it may lead? Zen

Well, the joke is on me. I began writing the text above in the textarea box, then copied it to Notepad, where I read through it, and made a few alterations. I thought I had previewed it, but maybe I did not. Some textarea boxes do have a problem with Notepad - the problem is sometimes you only realise too late to alter it. Zen