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The Happy Beggar: You Are Enough

Enlightenment is here and now.

There's a story about a beggar who's sitting on the side of a road. The old man has been on the road for years. A stranger approaches one afternoon. "Spare some change?" mumbles the beggar, mechanically shaking his tin cup.

"I have nothing to give you," the stranger said. The beggar turned away in disgust. Then the stranger asked, "What is that you're sitting on?"

"Nothing," the beggar told him. "Just an old box. I have been sitting on it for as long as I can remember."

"Ever looked inside?" asked the stranger.

"Why?" the beggar replied. "What's the point? There's nothing in there." 

The stranger insisted, "Have a look inside." The beggar refused at first—then finally decided to pry the lid open. With astonishment, disbelief, and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.

This is an allegory about enlightenment. We spend our lives begging for what we already possess, and seeking what we've already found (even if we don't know it). "What you are looking for is what is looking," a teacher of mine used to say, meaning the same thing. What we need is already here.

The gift and the giver are the same. In his book, "Thoughts Without a Thinker," Mark Epstein, the Buddhist psychologist, elucidates this paradox with a Zen passage:

To study Buddhism is to study the self.

To study the self is to forget the self.

To forget the self is to be one with others.

That's what it means to find the gold inside the box. We stop begging and start feeling grateful. We investigate our inner realms. We learn to spend the riches we find there. We release ourselves from the wheel of addiction that turns our civilization on an endless round of craving, dissatisfaction, and more craving. We step off, and back, and discover our wealth.

Enlightenment is the act of retrieval: The act of returning to ourselves. It is also the end of seeking, realizing there's nowhere to go. We open the box and stand back, amazed. Who knew that we were hiding such lustre?



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Mark Matousek is the award-winning author of two memoirs, Sex Death Enlightenment (an international bestseller) and The Boy He Left Behind. His new book is Ethical Wisdom: What Makes Us Good.

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