I know you're struggling right now and it seems like nothing is ever going to get better. You might feel like the walls are closing in and that no matter how hard you try, you're feel are stuck in that metaphorical mud. It's hard. I know.
I know it seems like nothing is ever going to be the same again, too. I know you feel like you'll never be that girl you once were, and you look back on what you call your "old" like and miss it so much. You didn't realize how good you had it before, you think.
But I'm here to tell you one thing: You ARE getting better. You might not be able to see it now, but each day, you are getting stronger and stronger. You are back at work, which is something to be extremely proud of. When you were in the hospital, I didn't know how you'd ever go back to work, but you did. That right there is a testament to your strength and willpower. You haven't lost your strength. Sure, you may have to look a little harder to find it, but it's there. It never went away, so take comfort in that.
I know you miss your writing too. It seems like writing anything is a struggle now, but baby steps is the way to go here. Know that your concentration and writing pizazz will come back in time. So until then, write what you can and know that that is enough for now. We both know you have trouble hearing the word patience so many times, so I won't tell you to remain patient. Instead, I'll tell you to remain calm. Does that help?