I have been engaged twice before. Both men cheated on me; this made me angry because I was honest with them and I want to start a family ASAP. However, a married colleague at work made me feel sexy again. We started a relationship a year ago. (My second fiance and I split since I realized that I could not trust him and felt guilty as well.) My lover's wife threw him out; he moved in with me, and his wife filed for divorce. (His three young children like me.) I've discovered that he is flirting with others. He wants to marry me but I can't control my jealousy. He declares that he has changed and I believe him. I deeply want us to make things work. Did I make the right decision?
Whoa, girl. Are you looking for a sperm donor or a husband? Your haste to start a family is already leaving a body count. Raising kids is hard work (very much worth it, but it takes a couple of decades to enjoy any return on investment). You need to choose a partner who's going to stick around and share the work.
Do you really think it's an accident that you have such a perfect record for choosing cheaters? And being one? What ideas do you have about men, women, marriage and/or sexuality that make you gravitate toward this behavior?